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12 Rebirth: Lyrics

When my mother, Ellen birthed me through her physical body, my human journey began. Our journey together as souls has been on-going and beyond time. As it was, as it is, as it shall always be. 

 

When I helped birth my mother into death, I received an initiation - an awareness that All is Well and death is an illusion. It has taken me 12 years and many ups and down to fully embody this experience here now in my own human journey and evolving body.

 

These songs are a humble attempt to share that vibration of Love, Peace, Truth, RIght-conduct, & Non-violence. Though we live on a planet of contrast and duality, we also live on a planet of unlimited resources, joy, connection, creativity and love.

 

We are the Ones we have been waiting for.

 

SIt back, Open your heart, and allow the Sounds of Alicia to remind you of who you are.

 

Prema Swarupa. Embodiment of Love.

 

Thank you to Ellen, my mother, Being of Joy, Passion Service & Transformation

 

Thank you to All who support me financially, emotionally & energetically, especially 

My Dad, Hub, Being of Humor, Lover of Music, Giver of Love

 

Thank you Vivienne Gerard for showing up and being my Cosmic Playmate with so much joy and strength. One Day is Here.

 

This album is dedicated to my Highest Self. May she keep evolving in service of more love, more joy, more connection, more play, more music, more awakening and peace for all.

– Alicia Mathewson

A New Earth

 

Nobody likes an angry singer ‘cept a teenager listening to punk

Nobody likes an angry woman except another one

Nobody likes an angry lover, yet there’s so many of them

Nobody likes an angry person and still here I am

 

2019 on Planet Earth

May all this anger rebirth

2019 on Planet Earth

May all this anger rebirth

A new earth

Somewhere inside of me

A new earth 

peaceful and free

A new earth miraculously

A new earth for you and me

 

Nobody likes a angry child who just wants to be loved

Nobody likes an angry father except another one

Nobody likes an angry country tearing itself apart

Nobody likes an angry people yet here we are

Nobody likes anger running up their spine

Nobody likes an urgent message saying now is the time

Nobody likes an angry woman singing her truth

But here i am, this is what i do

I am just like you

I am angry too

 

Nobody likes an angry moment but they come and go

Nobody likes to admit there’s not much we really know

Nobody likes to remember we’re all gonna die

Nobody ever gets curious if that too is not a lie

Six

 

When I was born I made my family five

Two older brothers and two parents so alive

We lived like that for about 3 years

Then number 6, she came

Thank God, another girl

My mother dreamed her in to be

I didn’t know it when back then

But she had come to complete our family

 

We were six

Coming together

Six

Loving ourselves into better

Six

Coming together

All the parts into one

All the parts into one

 

Six years ago my mother left this earth

And for a while it felt like we were five

Til I looked up and saw her six grandchildren

And never felt her so alive

 

They are six

Coming together

Six

Loving us all into better

Six

Coming together

All her parts into one

All her parts into one

 

I remember when I was six, I could feel the whole universe

Oh, but it frightened me, so I learned to hide it away

It’s taken me 36 years to let it all come through again

And now here I am……..42

Which is just

 

Six

Coming together

Six

Loving myself into better

Six

Coming together

All my parts into one

All my parts into one

Six points on the star of David

Six days to create the world

Six cells in a bees honeycomb

All the parts into one

All the parts into one

Harmony

 

I remember I was an African King in a faraway land

There was so much pain, misunderstanding but I was the man

That they looked to for harmony, they were so afraid

And so I prayed

 

Please bring us 

Harmony       

Right here right now

Please bring us 

Harmony       

Please bring us 

Harmony right here right now

Please bring us 

Harmony

 

I remember I was a star in a faraway galaxy

I was so expansive and so free

And I danced and played in perfect harmony

I didn’t even know what I had, don’t you see

 

Let us pray for 

Harmony

Right here right now

Let us pray for 

Harmony

Let us pray for 

Harmony

Right here right now

Let us pray for 

Harmony

Yahaaa

 

I remember when I was 3 and half years old I could feel the beat  

I played the drums in a pretty dress and they took pictures of me

Because I was here and I knew I had the sound      

Sing my song and help us all be found

 

We are made of

Harmony

Let yourself feel this

Harmony

Let yourself breathe the

Harmony

Let your heart know this

Harmony

I Am the  Ocean

(Algonquin Water Song)

Nee bee wah bow 

End die en

Ah khee mis quee

Nee bee wah bow

Hey ya hey ya hey ya hey

Hey ya hey ya hey ya ho

It doesn’t matter which ocean it is

When those waves start crashing, instant bliss

And it doesn’t matter, west coast or east

When those waves are rolling, I am free

    

Cause I am the Ocean, I am the Sea

I know where I came from and who I’m supposed to be

I am the Ocean, Every single wave    

May we all rise and awake

 

It doesn’t matter which which country I’m in

When those waves start crashing, I’m home again

It doesn’t matter who’s sitting next to me

When those waves are rolling, I am free

11 Years Later

 

You taught me how to pray

You taught me how to cry

You taught me how to stay

And give it one more try

You taught me how to laugh

And enjoy the ride

You taught me how to give

You taught me how to die

11 years later and you’re still here

Deep inside my heart guiding a path so clear

11 years later, still feels like yesterday

When I watched your soul expanding away

How I watched your soul expanding away

 

Sometimes I wish I could still hear your voice

In all it’s judgement, in all it’s love

Sometimes I wish I could feel your body too

In all its imperfection, in all its truth

 

11 years later and you’re still here

Deep inside my heart guiding a path so clear

11 years later, still feels like yesterday

When I felt your soul expanding away

How I felt your soul expanding away

 

I remember when you called me strong

I am sorry for when I was afraid

You promised to talk to me after you were gone

Thank you for always guiding my way

 

11 years later and you’re still here

Deep inside my heart guiding a path so clear

11 years later, still feels like yesterday

When I watched your soul expanding away

How I felt  your soul expanding away

I still feel your soul expanding today

Resurrection

 

Even though I want to give up, I’m not gonna

Cause there’s no good in that

Even though I want to give up, I’m not gonna

Cause the world needs what I have

It may kill me to get this next sound out

But I know I’m held

I know I’m held

 

Somebody help me

Somebody give me everything that I need right now

Somebody show me I am worthy somehow

Cause I  know the world needs exactly who I am

And I’m the only one that’s keeping it from me

And from everyone

 

I gotta rise up be free

Rise up be free

Rise up be free

Remember how to be me and be happy

Rise up be free

Rise up be free

Rise up be free be me be happy

 

May my struggle and resurrection

Inspire somebody else to struggle and

Resurrect the very thing they’re here to tell

My story, my purpose, my way of being true

May my struggle inspire you

Cause I’m so tired of struggle

Tired of the race

Hiding deep inside

Never know the grace

Gotta let it out

find a way to be

All that  I am

Set it all free

And may my struggle and resurrection

Inspire you 

Yes may my struggle and resurrection

Inspire you to be true

 

We’re not gonna give up, even when we want to 

Cause there’s no good in that

Not gonna give up, even when we want to 

The world needs what we have

Gotta believe we’re worthy

Gotta believe it’s true

I have something and so do you  

 

And may our struggle and resurrection

Inspire somebody else to struggle and resurrect

The very thing they’re here to tell

Our story, our purpose, our way of being true

May our struggle inspire you

Cause I’m so tired of struggle

Tired of the race

Hiding deep inside

Never know the grace

Gotta let it out

find a way to be

All that I am

Set it all free

And may my struggle and resurrection inspire you 

May my struggle and resurrection

Inspire you to be true

To be true

To be true

To be true

Be Creative

 

11 years ago you knew you were dying

But no one believed you

Including me

We didn’t want to believe

We didn’t know how to live without you

 

I wonder if you felt afraid

Or alone

Or helpless

Kind of how I feel right now

11 years later

11 years

11 years later

 

11 years ago I chose myself

Began a journey of self love and truth

I wanted to separate from you

Here I am now

Still struggling with the same things

Loss

Food

Mother

Anger

Angry. So angry.

 

It’s an 11 year and

I was thinking that was good

And now I’m not so sure

 

To be creative is to

Feel pain and joy

Like polar opposites

 

To be creative is to 

Realize they are one

To be creative is to know death is only a moment

No matter how much fear it may awake

 

To be creative is to know your mother was your greatest love

And also a servant of the Divine

To bring you back to yourself

 

To be creative is to cry and write and listen and cough

Allowing energy to move through you because 

You are an antenna for love

 

To be creative is to laugh at how painful it can be to be alive

 

To be creative is everything

So be creative

 

Be creative and Trust

 

To be creative is why we are here

And who we are

Be Creative

Moments of Bliss

 

Funny thing about Bliss

It’s gonna go away

Funny thing about life

It’s gonna end someday

Funny thing about you

Best heart I’ve ever known

Funny thing about me

Here again alone

       

And I

Trust my Heart

Like the ocean flowing 

On and on

And I

Trust my breath

Like a river that never

Ends or begins

And I trust me

And I trust you

And I trust everything in all we do

I trust love

Whatever that is

I’m so grateful for our moments of 

Bliss

Funny thing about truth

It’s gonna have its way

Funny thing about change

It comes everyday

Funny thing about now

It’s all we ever have

Funny thing about me

I love to laugh

       

Hold on to me, Hold on to you

 

Funny thing about songs

They can come like lightning bolts

Funny thing about love

It’s in all these notes

Funny thing about loss

It’s gonna just keep happening

Funny thing about us

We were born to sing

       

And I

Trust my Heart

Like the ocean flowing

On and on

And I

Trust my breath

Like a river that never

Ends or begins

And I trust you

And I trust me

And I trust one day we will all be free

Cause I trust love

And all that it is

I’m so grateful for our moments of 

Bliss

 

Hold on to me

Hold on to you

Love Again

 

I remember the first time my heart was broken

Thought I’d never love again

I remember the first time I fell to my knees

Thought I’d never love again

Oh but here I am

Loving you

Here I am

Living true

 

I remember the first time I played a song

Felt like energy straight from my heart

I remember the sting of someone’s critical thoughts

And I remember how I shut it all off

Oh but here I am

Singing for you

Here I am

Living true

 

It’s not what happens to us that makes our life

It’s how we get back up again

It’s not what we lose that makes our life

It’s how we learn to love again

And again and again and again 

And again and again and again 

And again and again and again 

Love again and again and again and again

Sanctity

 

I know you think I’m crazy

Spent my whole life trying to prove you wrong

But I woke up this morning 

And realized exactly where I belong

Inside the sanctity of my own heart

 

I know that this looks crazy

But I don’t have time to prove you wrong

Cause I woke up this morning

And realized exactly where I belong

Inside the sanctity of my own heart

 

Let it rise like the dawning of a new day

May we realize there is nothing more to say

Let it rise like a star for everyone

May all this questioning finally be done

 

Cause I see, I see now and I hear

And I let love awaken beside every fear

Inside the sanctity of my own heart

 

Let it rise like a dawning of a new day

May we rest in the emptiness, there is nothing left to say

Let it rise like a star for everyone

And may all this questioning finally be done

 

Who we are is what we seek

Oh blessed are the meek

What we know is not at all what it is

I’m so grateful now beyond bliss

 

Let it rise like the dawning of a new day

May we all realize there is nothing left to say

Let it rise like a star for everyone

May all this questioning finally be done

May all this questioning finally be done

May all Beings finally be One

Walk Your Way on Through

 

IIf I could make it better by writing a song, you know I would

But I stopped living my life long ago from should

If I could lift it all up, take all your pain away

You know I’d sing that song, that is a prayer that I would pray

I’ve shown you the light

I’ve shown you the door

And I just can’t keep doing it anymore 

No no my love it’s time for you         

To walk your way on through    

It’s time for you          

To walk your way on through     

I can’t do it for you

No no no I just can’t do it for you

It’s time to walk your way on through

 

If I could write a song to heal the world that’s what I’d do

But how many of us even believe that could be true

If I could lift it all up, take all the pain away

That is a song I’d sing, that is a prayer that I would pray

 

We’ve been shown the light

We’ve been shown the door

And we just can’t keep doing this anymore

No no my love it’s time for You         

To walk your way on through

It’s time for you          

To walk your way on through     

no one’s gonna do it you    

No no no no no one’s gonna do it for you        

It’s time to walk your way on through

It’s time to walk your way on through

I am always with you

It’s time we walk our way on through

Born Free

 

Sometimes I remember when I was born

So much possibility in store

So many people making so much noise

But I can feel the silent unlimited void

 

I was born a pure white light

And all my life I have been fighting the good fight 

Now I just sit back allow and let it all be

Watch out world I am born free

Watch out world I am born free

 

Like the sun, I shine on everything

Every step I take and every note I sing

And I invite all of you to rise up too

I am nothing without you

I am nothing without you

 

Sometimes I remember when I was born

So much possibility in store

So many people making so much noise

But I can feel the silent unlimited void

 

You were born a pure white light

All your life, you have been fighting the good fight 

Just sit back allow and let it all be

Watch out world we are born free

Watch out world we are born free

 

Asato Ma Sadgamaya

Thomasoma Jyortirgamaya

Mrityorma Amritam Gamaya

 

Asato Ma Sadgamaya

 

(Lead me from untruth to Truth

Lead me from darkness to Light

Lead from death to Immortality)